Going into the summer, my expectations were, essentially :
Loneliness
Job-I-Hate Misery
Song Writing
Song Recording
Justin & Laura time
Letter Writing
Reading
Car Buying
Tolerating existence until I could return to Norman, which I would try to make happen at the earliest possible moment
Basically, summer is over. I'm leaving Tulsa in the morning, and this is not what my summer looked like.
There are some people here who I love more than I thought I would let myself this summer. Kali and Rachel Knorr, my sister Anna, the Crews family, the entire entity that is Redeemer Pres. And leaving them sucks.
I didn't cry when I left Tulsa last summer. Or the summer before. I've cried twice today.
I don't understand myself right now. I really want to get to know you again, get to figuring out who I am..., to know you and be known by you. I have thoughts to wrestle with and I need your help.
The Love of Christ is Rich and Free. This is beautiful. The Body of Christ can love one another only because of this love that started it all. And it's the love that makes leaving have to suck.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
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I know how you feel. I was really really sad to leave L'viv, even though I was/am looking forward to being back in Norman.
ReplyDeleteit's good to have two wonderful options, but it sucks that they can't happen at the same time.
I can't wait to see you.